52 Weeks of Gratitude - Week 8

52 WEEKS OF GRATITUDE

WEEK 8 - EXPRESS GRATITUDE TO 3 PPL

There are lots of people that I have come across in my life that I could express gratitude towards but if we are referring to the here then it would have to be my husband - he has so much love and patience and really doesn't deserve to put up with me well ..... being 'this' person that I have been for a while now, Partner's sometimes really do put up with a lot of crap don't they? Why do we push away our partners?

I can honestly say that it is the loneliest I have ever felt in my life when it comes to friendships - life is so busy that the quality time to spend with people other than my husband and kids does not exist. I do not feel like the sort of person that anyone would like to just hang out with anyway, I always feel like the "forgotten" friend, the one who holds a friendship on a higher pedestal than the other, the one who never gets invited anywhere and wouldn't see anyone if I didn't organise things. Mate-ship seems to evolve around me, I can't even pick up the phone anymore to talk to anyone with the fear of them not answering because they don't want to talk to me and I take offence when a text gets sent and not replied too even though I know phone companies are sometimes to blame. 

I know things go both ways and possibly it is my fault but i'm exhausted - running a household and working full-time is tough, the only thing I do for myself on a day to day basis is goto the gym (sad I know)but it gives me the energy to keep going and I spend my days off catching up on all the housework and cleaning up, for some reason I get the attack of the guilts if I go anywhere and neglect the house duties that no one else does - is this normal? I never used to be like this and i don't know how things have changed so much - is it just getting older that sucks? 

I don't know - how do you find the perfect balance in life between Family, Work and Life without something getting neglected?

Maybe everyone else is in the same position and feeling exactly the same - who knows

Adulting is so complicated sometimes but I am truly thankful for every single person who has come into my life in some way or another